|More About This Path
||[Jan. 10th, 2006|01:11 pm]
Thought that I would share this part of my recent past here. Sometime ago, I happened to place a profile on the Disinformation website since basically I thought I would finally meet an ideal partner based on my personal preferences. A few good choices here in the city where I live, but unfortunately I received no replies back. Anyways, later out of the blue, I finally receive my first reply. I believe that she lived all the way in Russia, but since I am an idealist, I was willing to do what was necessary to introduce her personally into my life. She wanted someone who would be honest and not drink heavily and be true to her. The man of her dreams, if you will. I think that she did a disappearing act on me because I clearly said that I would be true to her alone even before we met in person. Poof! No more betrothed. I suppose traditional relationships work best if you treat them frivolously and/or for granted as is often the case with the mainstream. Obviously, I was a bit angry and even though I did not use profanity to actually insult her when writing in my journal back then, I was not exactly elated that someone who entered my life unexpectedly disappears without a third email reply. After yet more soul searching, I happened to come across this online community after I had been wearing my special ring for quite sometime. As a Pagan, naturally I want a sacred relationship and what is wonderful about the notion of self-marriage, I will never end up having an ordinary relationship with myself. You know, where the person you marry becomes little more than just a roommate and the magic and passion has long since departed. So do not want that sort of marriage.